One Long Rollercoaster

Well, I was hoping my next post would have been about meeting the boys or having them here, but unfortunately that's not the case. Instead, its been a long week of ups and downs. After each phone call I thought of writing something, but things seemed to be changing so fast that we were told something different before I even had a chance to write about what we were just told.

If I would have written something after my last post I would have written about the great deal we found for a crib and changing table we bought.

If I would have written something after that it would have been how I kept my phone with me all day last Monday since that's when we were supposed to hear about our license. I would have written about how frustrated I was once 5 o'clock rolled around and still no phone call. However, I tried to remain patient thinking that maybe state workers weren't coming back until Tuesday.

If I would have written something after that, I would have written about how I didn't hear anything all day on Tuesday until about 5pm and how excited I was when I heard the phone ring and saw it was Youth For Christ. But I wouldn't have had news about our license. Instead I would have written about how we were suddenly told that there were new concerns about the boys being placed together and that we were told that the state was thinking about placing them in separate homes and would get back to us later.

If I would have written something after that, I would have written something a couple days later after we were called back and told that the state decided to keep the boys together, but was now looking at placing them in an "adoptive" home and how that decision would be made sometime after the January 20. Justin and I have had our foster care home inspection, but not our adoption home inspection. We haven't had it yet because we were under the impression that that part did not have to be done until further down the road. Therefore, although our hope in all this is to adopt, we are not yet "adoptive parents."

So now several days later I'm not really sure to write about. Most of it would probably be complaining so I should probably just keep it short. We know God has a plan, but His plan isn't making a lot of sense to us right now. I guess in writing all this the main point is to share with you all the ways we could use prayer right now.